Over these 2 months, I’ve had a lot of time and freedom to do what I want, especially with school out of the way (I hate to disappoint my parents, but school is not my happy place 😭). Anyways, I wanted to capitalize on this and grind my computer vision projects, become more technical, read papers, watch podcasts, put out podcast episodes, and much more. My expectations for myself were really high, and yes it’s good to push myself to do better, but a lot of it ended up me just striving for those outcomes and being focused on that. When I met these outcomes, I was happy…for a bit, and when I didn’t meet them, I’d be disappointed. It was this constant cycle of hedonic adaptation and I wasn’t playing a long-term game.
I read about how Richard Feynman got tired of doing physics after being narrow-focused and concentrated on the outcome. He was later in a cafeteria and a guy threw a plate in the air- the wobble from the rotating plate made him curious about this motion. After working on the equations of wobbles, he started researching relativity, and electrodynamics and ended up getting a Nobel Prize from “piddling around with the wobbling plate”.
What I want to learn from this story I need to have a balance between “I need to sit down and do this” and looking into things I’m curious about, even if it overlaps with the goals and outcomes I want.