Empathy? Compassion?
These last few weeks of 2022 come with cultural expectations that set it apart from the rest of the year. Strong/mixed emotions, expectations of others and ourselves usually end up colliding with reality. When perfect holiday gatherings fall apart or when family members come together and don’t get along we suffer. We make plans to spend more time with friends thinking they want our company, only to find out they don’t have the time “just now,” we suffer. When we create lists of activities that either don’t come out as planned or never materialize, we suffer. We work hard to plan a holiday season that will be joyous and peaceful, but somehow, sadness finds its way in, loneliness feels even lonelier and the pain of those we’ve lost over the years reawakens, and we suffer.
What do we do with these feelings? We have choices, some are destructive and some may actually ease not only our suffering, but offer a path to greater compassion for ourselves and others. Buddhism talks a great deal about compassion but what is compassion and how do we “give” compassion?
Star Trek fans may recall the character of the Betazoid empath Deanna Troi. Her character had the ability to feel and understand what another was feeling. I like to think I have empathy, but do I? Empathy is putting myself in your position to feel what you are feeling - joy, pain or grief. If I have empathy I willingly open myself to experience exactly what you are feeling. This is very difficult to do. Instead, what I may be saying is that I recall a similar emotional experience and recall a faded memory of what that experience felt like.
Empathy is needed to awaken us to our interconnections with sentient beings. Most of us are not equipped to experience those feelings of another as a Deanna Trio would. Instead, we tend to relive our own similar experiences and rely on the associated feelings to show compassion.
Empathy is the direction sign pointing to compassion. This act of compassion needs to begin with me. We have choices but habits over the years lead us to believe we are irrevocably destined to repeat history even though we do our best to avoid it. Being compassionate toward myself is my first step. If I cannot do that for me, how will I do it for others? Being awake to the feelings I have, being awake to the illusions I keep that sets me up for dukkha, being open and having empathy for myself first, may be one way to find the joy and peace, the promise of this season.
Namo Amida Butsu
In gassho
Rev. Anita
rev.anit.cbt@outlook.com
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