There was a poolside bar at either end of the party. I’ve never been much of a drinker, but I can usually find a non-alcoholic option hidden among the beer, wine and spirits. The bars were jam-packed, though, three guys deep, and the thought of inserting myself into the crowd was daunting. And while I did spot a less crowded bar on the other side of the dance floor, the guys hanging around it were all shirtless.
No thanks.
I wondered what that said about me. It wasn’t a matter of snubbing the hamburger for the prime hunk of meat at home. It never hurts to look—as evidenced by my dirty video collection, which Jacob is always adding to.
No, ever since I ditched Camp Hell, I’ve been intensely private about my love life—one might even call it closeted. But I’d always figured no one needed to know about my preference unless they wanted to give me a hand job.
But I’d stood up in front of the world and married Jacob, so I supposed that was no longer my problem. Maybe my reluctance to push through a crowd of sweaty, shirtless guys had more to do with my discomfort with humanity in general.
Guess it’s tough to spell the word introvert without the letter-I.
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