Las Cruces, New Mexico, Sunday, December 15, 2019
I've been having a lot of sleepless nights here in Las Cruces.
I wish I could tell you there is some major issue keeping me up at night, or that some sort of physical discomfort is to blame. But, in truth, it's all on me.
I've been wildly out of balance these past few weeks.
Being so focused on closing out the business year, making sure everything else gets "done", and trying to control everything has ensured that I don't focus on the one thing that's most important.
My well being.
Not admitting this self neglect (until now... thank you writing catharsis!), means I've instead chosen to wade in the thick sludge of resistance.
This wading then manifests as anxious, repetitive thinking and a mind which refuses to turn off for fear of... well... pretty much everything.
And all of this is not so good for sleeping.
BUT, I do know that this too shall pass.
Instead of pushing to fix or control the situation, I'm choosing to accept that I'm responsible for it. I choose to see the actions I'm taking which contribute to said resistance, then I choose differently where and when I can.
It's all a choice.
Sometimes I'll succeed in this acceptance. Sometimes I will fail. But it's not the outcome that's important.
There is no outcome, really.
What's important is choosing to go into the process, choosing to step on the path, and choosing to continue down it despite any setbacks or doubts.
As I said, it's all a choice.
It's all my choice.
In the content I share with you this week, what I really talk about IS this process; this life journey of acceptance and choice.
In the moments when I feel powerless, these are the moments I can instead choose to step into my power.
These moments and choices aren't easy, but they ARE what architecting my best life boils down to.
In this, my last newsletter of 2019, I hope you choose to see this as well.
Or, at the very least, I hope you enjoy reading and hearing all about it!