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Happy Thai New Year!
Holy Heavens, I have an entire month off! And I didn't strangle any of my students! But there might have been some minor psychological damage. It's only fair, as above, so below, etc, etc.
Actually, you're going to be real proud of me. I've decided to accept present circumstances, instead of constantly trying to change them. But don't call me an adult yet.
It's been such a hard adjustment that I've often contemplated what it would have been like if we had stayed in Rayong. Now, I know that's a big bad road to go down, but the mind likes to play games.
So, I looked at life and wondered, what if I have this all wrong? What if I'm blessed, but because I don't have the helicopter perspective, I'm crying over spilled soy milk?
Also, this job has forced me to notice:
- I never give myself credit or look back at all that I've accomplished.
- Instead, I constantly brainstorm how I can be better or "fix" problems.
- While I can forget issues or events for a time, I return to them, doomed to repeat cycle (see 2).
Recently, I found Dr. Jud's TED talk on A Simple Way to Break a Bad Habit, and I'm all better now -- just kidding. I'm just better than you.
Hahahaha.
Ahem.
Seriously. The vid made me realize that I was in this habit loop, like addicts, and it's crazy because I never thought of my propensity (or strength) to "be better" and "fix things" as a bad habit, let alone an addiction!
So that's where I'm at. Doing the deep dive -- listening to Dr. Jud on Rich Roll's podcast, and looking forward to checking out his thoughts on anxiety, too.
How are you?
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