Hi there ,
The weather is absolutely glorious as I write this, and the urge to bunk off and go sit in the park is very, very strong. But alas, it is not to be. I have far, far too much to do.
I used to think that being self-employed would empower me to spend days in the park if I wanted to, and if there’s one thing I wish I could go back and tell my younger self, it’s that freelance work is 99% graft and only 1% bunking off. More on that below.
Suw’s News
I know I said several weeks ago that I was going to get cracking with the Show Bible for my TV series, but stuff happened. Two cats and a husband arrived from America, a bed had to be acquired, sofas and wardrobes had to be bought (OK, really only one of each), and so on and so on.
But I have now finally started. What exactly is a Show Bible (or Treatment)? I have absolutely no clue and after a quick Google, and it seems no-one else does either. Every online guide I looked at said something different, so I’ve picked two that seem sensible – this one from Industrial Scripts and this one from Script Advice – and smooshed them together. We’ll see how that pans out.
Talking of Script Advice, I promised my mentor that I’d invest in my writing this year and when I saw that Yvonne Grace was running a two-weekend script editing course, I jumped at it. Normally I’d hesitate so long about an opportunity like this that I’d miss my chance, but I made the decision and booked my slot immediately.
Yvonne developed her skills as a script editor on Eastenders, and has worked for the BBC, Granada, ITV, and Carlton, working on Coronation Street, Holby City, the Crossroads reboot and much more. I am so excited about learning script editing from her!!
Stop, Look and Listen: Not Too Busy To Write – Sian Meades-Williams
This week, I listened to Penny Wincer talking to Sian Meades-Williams about freelancing and newsletters on the Not Too Busy to Write podcast. Sian runs the Freelance Writing Jobs newsletter, which collects opportunities for writers. In this episode, Penny and Sian talked about the transition people make between employment and freelancing, and how hard it can be, emotionally, to pitch to editors and put yourself out there.
There’s some really brilliant advice throughout the episode, advice I wish I’d had when I quit my job to become a freelance music journalist back in 1998. My first freelance job was writing about Blur’s gear for the Melody Maker, which you can read on my extremely old website. I spent two years trying to make a go of it, but earnt only £4k a year and then ran out of space on my credit card.
My big mistake, which is obvious in retrospect, was that I wanted to write more fiction, so I thought that if I became a freelance journalist I’d have more time to myself. But instead I spent a lot of time stressing about money, trying to get work, getting cross when magazines rejected my pitches but then published the same ideas a few months later.
Worse, I lost my confidence. I believed that no one would ever employ me and that my only option was to battle through and hope for a big break… but that break never came. What happened was my own personal financial crisis, hitting rock bottom and discovering there’s actually more shit underneath.
I still regret that decision and I think it was the gravest mistake I’ve made in my writing life.
I now understand that I was suffering from Plan Continuation Bias whilst stuck in the Scarcity Trap. Plan Continuation Bias is the idea that once we have a plan, we stick to it even though conditions have changed and it would be more sensible to do something different. Tim Harford has an amazing podcast episode on it which explains it brilliantly. The Scarcity Trap is when our cognitive functions become impaired because we are so focused on something that’s missing from our lives, such as money, that we can’t think clearly and end up making bad decisions. Hidden Brain has an episode on it that’s worth listening to.
I had no money. But I had a plan. So I had to stick to that plan. Except the plan was a bad one and so were most, if not all, of my decisions. I thought I needed to work for myself to have time to write, rather than find a decent job that paid me well so that I could be unencumbered by stress and could write in my evenings
Don’t get me wrong, freelancing can be a great life. But if you’re going to do it, it has to be because you want to do that kind of work, not because you think it will give you more time to yourself, because it's unlikely to work out that way.
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