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Definitely, there were quite a few wins for the past 2 months. With wins, comes feelings of whether or not I deserve it. Part of this comes from scrolling on Twitter and seeing AI projects pumped out left and right. I think to myself, why am I not doing that?
I'm not making progress.
In reality, this isn't true at all. These past 2 months, I had hundreds of different conversations. One conversation led to a pivot into using fMRIs instead of EEGs for depression-related brain data. Another led to a new partnership in rural Pakistan to empower hundreds more youth.
And 3 more led to the start of lasting friendships. š
I learned that progress isn't just typing away on VS Code. The needle also is turned with each meaningful conversation and new perspective that catalyzes change.
I think back on the malicious whispers I heard in middle school when I nerded out about robotics, the rejection after rejection I faced for 5 months trying to secure my first partnership with Codespire, and hearing "mental health is a western hoax" repeatedly, and I realize that I have indeed made progress.
For the past year or so, I've found that child-like wonder again for thinking big, striking up conversation and chasing the next adventure relentlessly.
Imposter syndrome creeps up on us in weird ways. Do you deserve this? Are you worth it? Was someone else a better choice?
Who cares?
Just keep doing what you're doing. We only control the worth we place on ourselves, so just take everything external in stride. :)
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