Hi beautiful friend,
I turned 41 this week, and while I used to be like, "Ugh another year older" now I am like, "Oh hey I literally survived another year!" Not that life is so hard, but because my health is so tenuous. I have this deeply seated fear of dying before I am of great benefit the world.
While that might sound selfless and giving, I have come to realize that it is totally not. It's my ego being like, "I want to be special! I want to change the world!" which, yes, is probably better than being like "The world owes me and I want to be insanely wealthy!" but it is still really wanting things to go my way. And for things to be MAJOR.
So, while I really truly do hope to live my life in a way that is of benefit to others, I also feel actual, genuine gratitude for the chance to just be alive. As my wise father says, "Getting older is better than the alternative!" (He means dying, you guys, not aging backwards. Benjamin Button isn't real. 😂)
Okay, let's talking about your 5 quick things this week. ⏬
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