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Epiphany. Learning Experience.

Whatever you want to call it, I've realized something in the past few weeks. Other than the fact that I can eat myself to sleep and not feel guilty about it. What else is a quarantined pregnant woman to do?!

Let me slightly backtrack to June 2019 (HOLY MOLY THAT WAS ALMOST A YEAR AGO). I was fed up with my job and the monotony of my daily routine, My life consisted of being in the car 90% of the time because #Floridalife. I was absolutely miserable going to work and could only see dead-ends in front of me.

I told myself "this CANNOT be IT". So, I did what any other person would do in this day and age, and I googled what to do next. I highly recommend it.

I looked through many many MANY job listings. 

I looked at many many many lists of best places to live in the world. 

I looked at many many many different career paths that are out there. 

I let my mind wander. I allowed myself to dream of the possibilities. 

- Move to Costa Rica in the Blue Zone area to drink freshly made smoothies and do yoga all day.

- Move to Singapore and pursue a high-end career so that I can live in luxury.

- Move to Europe and go back to school so that I can follow a different path.

- Quit my job and stay at home for a little bit to see what inspires me.

I had so many thoughts go through my head, I was about to explode. Luckily, after many google searches, I fell upon a top-ranked university that offered a degree I was extremely interested in. Applied Cognitive Psychology.

Finally, something I was passionate about! Never thought THAT would happen.

So, on a whim, I applied to the program. 

Did I mention that it was all the way across the ocean, in the Netherlands? This wasn't SUCH a far-fetched idea because my husband is Dutch so I thought to myself "we wouldn't be completely alone in a strange new country fending for ourselves". 

Except, it became a crazy idea the moment I got accepted into the program and had 2 months to pack up my whole life and move. While you might know this story, what you don't know is that my husband was in the process of applying for his American citizenship which made this move quite INCONVENIENT, to say the least. 

Technically, what it meant was that it would be a short-term decision as we would have to move back to the States within a year so that he could continue the process.

What do you think happened?

A LOT of people frowned upon this decision to move so hastily. 

This was the main comment "why don't you wait one more year and move then?"

So, as you can imagine, being the anxious introvert that I am, I had this thought in the back of my mind ever since I landed here. 

See, as I battled pre-natal depression, and commuted my ass two hours every day for 5 months to pursue this program, all while not having an income anymore and stressing out about my husband's status, I couldn't stop thinking that THEY WERE RIGHT. 

Up until now. Because of my BIG realization (courtesy of the Coronavirus).

If I had listened and rescinded my application, my move to Europe and my hope for a different path in life would have come to a screeching halt because look at what's happening in the world right now.

Based upon the outlook right now,  if I were still in Florida, I wouldn't have applied to this program because of the uncertainty of it actually being open (the school is officially closed until the next program starts) next year. 

Maybe I wouldn't have gotten in.

I might have been terrified to take the leap because of the current economic outlook. 

I might have been laid off since my company is in an industry that was already on its way out. 

And I certainly wouldn't be pregnant with my second child.

Which is why I recently realized that:


There I said it. 

While you're mulling it over, you could be missing out on the time of your life. You could be missing out on love, money, career opportunities, etc. If it feels right and it excites you, what are you waiting for? Don't let other people's opinions get in the way of how you want to live your life. And even if there are some risks involved (such as my husband's issue), the beauty is that there are always solutions to be found.

Remember, everything is figureoutable.

And even in a time like this, when things are EVEN more uncertain than usual, don't let that get in the way of a decision you've been meaning to make. Who knows, if you make a decision even with all this uncertainty floating around, you might be in the best position of your life next year.

If there's one extra thing this virus has taught me (other than not hoarding all the hand sanitizer when it's restocked) it's that there's no way to know what's waiting around the corner. 

So it's better to go ahead and make that decision today.

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honestroxI've been reflecting a lot lately 📕 I've been journaling my entire life it seems. I have diaries dating back to when I was 13 years old. A lifetime ago! I've tried soooo many different types of journal but lately I've been hooked on this awesome gratitude journal called Chapters by @vertellis. I carry it with me everywhere :) Well everywhere pre-quarantine! If you feel like you have a lot of thoughts running through your mind and you want to direct them towards a more positive standpoint, then this is a great journal to help with that. It has so many nice prompts, and you get to write the things you're grateful for every day ❤️ This is exactly what I need during this time. P.S. not an affiliate or a sponsored post!
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